Have you ever missed someone but didn’t feel like seeing or even contacting her?
As
you ask yourself this question, a name or an image of someone appears
in your mind. And in your mind you know that that person is the one you
are missing right now. But you don’t want to make any contact with
her.It’s not that striking up a conversation is a difficult matter. For
several times in the past you said ‘hi’ without having any other topics
that should continue the simple exchange into a conversation. Many of
these instances you can remember quite well.
You take
up your cell phone and access the chat box where you and she said a few
things the other night. You can still very well recall what she said,
and even the emoticon she had put at the end of her message is a vivid
image. But still you re-read that conversation. Your eyes slowly moved
from the capital letter that introduces her message to the last one,
while in your mind her voice reads the message for you. Listening to her
soft, imaginary voice,you smiled. Just like you did every time you
actually talked to her. You are still staring at the screen, realizing
that you did not open the chat box to remind yourself of the message,
but to pamper yourself in the reminiscence of the emotions you used to
be in when you met her. These emotions had made up a tender affection
you had for her. Your memory of this is being refreshed.
Maybe
you give yourself into lying in your bedroom wide awake in the dead of
the night thinking of that one person simply because you like missing
her. When you are missing her, some space in your heart feels empty, the
space you only now realized was where you kept her in fondness. That
emptiness reminds you of the lively affection you have for her. You once
again smile. You miss the warmth her presence had upon you. And as you
are missing her now, it once more blushes in you.
You realize, this is the reason why you linger in your missing her.
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